june 29-30, an im between a masculivoid and a deceiver
i posted the im because it's kind of comedic, ridiculous as q
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masculivoid: well me boyfriend is white i understand
masculivoid: i like wht guys too
me: anything male, though, i guess will fill the void in us gay men. sometimes we just get picky
masculivoid: yeah i know what u mean (pity you can't feel what i mean)
masculivoid: r u with an artist on tour now
me: heck no, i'm on vacation
masculivoid: cool enjoy it sir
masculivoid: i hope u find your wht boy :o)
masculivoid: take care
me: alright i'll try. gotta find me a man to rid my lonliness for one. heck if i can do it!
me: thanks man
me: nice chatting
masculivoid: lol no prob....same here
me: same here what?
masculivoid: find someone for the lonliness
me: yeah, my brother tells me i should be the only man for me. some crap about showing myself love and devotion.
straights just don't understand us gay men, we're so different than straights.
masculivoid: very true they just dont get it and they prob never will :o(
masculivoid: it has tken my family awhile but they r over it finally
me: i hate it. it's like "brian, i'm not like you, i'm not like anybody, gay hearts are different than straight hearts,".
it's like we're in a class by ourselves. fuck straights.
masculivoid: gay relationships and straight relationships parelel but gay ones are more
me: how do you mean? more intense?
masculivoid: we have to thank straight people for one thing
masculivoid: the emotion that is generated between 2 men or 2 women is compounded on top
of the issues that society has with us (you're the one with the problem) and the exceptance process we have to go
through as well about who the hell we are (nothing more than our libidos)
masculivoid: there is more involved in our relationships (poor poor pitiful me)
masculivoid: see what i mean
me: i think you're too smart for me, i don't understand
masculivoid: lol hardly
masculivoid: we are raised in a world where the norm is hetero
masculivoid: right? (yeah, if the norm was homo we'd have been extinct a while ago)
me: my brother says i am a man. and that i am slapping myself in the face by telling myself that i need another man
masculivoid: ok given the condissioning of our up bringing we as gay men and women have
to first deal with the fact the we are (choosing to be with our behavior) gay and everyone around us says it is wrong (waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!!!!!)
and we are going to hell (unless you repent, quoth the raven)
masculivoid: we find away to love ourselves (in spite of the rejection we have of ourselves as men) thus being able to love another man and not
allow straight people to make a feel bad about it.....straight people dont have to go
through all that bs (that's cuz they're straight with themselves as a member of their gender)
masculivoid: see what i mean
masculivoid: i might not be explaining it correctly :o)
me: yeah i guess. all i really want is some comfort, a man.
masculivoid: it is really hard for somepeople to do that because of their own issuse sometimes :o(
(listen to him, listen to "human nature," 'you're the one with the problem')
me: i said something like that to my bro, told him that he has an issue, and he said i'm just trying to market myself as
blameless and perfect by labeling him as the sick one when i am really the sick one
masculivoid: what r u serious?
me: that's what he said
masculivoid: u know what that is bs (hmm...)
me: he says i am complexed
masculivoid: u know how old is ur bro?
me: of course i know. he just turned 31
masculivoid: he is my age where were u guys raised?
me: what does that have to do with anything
masculivoid: well sometimes people are influenced by their surrounding ....like i was raised
in cali my family is really open mind about a lot of things see
(gomorrah by the sea)
me: oh. i grew up in alabama
masculivoid: that explains alot
me: how come?
masculivoid: not the most gay friendly place in the worldd
me: he says us gays want special rights, because facades of prife must be saved
me: i dunno
masculivoid: ok how old r u?
me: duh i'm 27. it's in my profile
masculivoid: sorry i forgot
me: it's ok
masculivoid: man i don't know what else to say
me: neither do i. do you have a big dick like all black guys do?
masculivoid: please dont be offended but ur bro is a dick
me: i know
masculivoid: excuse me? (that's a queeny dialogue if i've ever seen one)
masculivoid: 8.5'' cut
me: wow that's big
me: hee hee. wish mine was that big. wish my dad's dick gene went into me instead of into my dumb bro
masculivoid: well alrighty then (btw, my dialogue is scripted so i can sound cool like jim)
me: just the gay gene went into me
masculivoid: me too
me: and the straight gene went into my bro. and the guitar player gene went into my sis. i wish i could play the guitar, i
don't have the correct gene though. (that line cracks me up)
masculivoid: yes u do!
me: tell that to my guitar teacher.
me: ex-guitar teacher
me: why aren't u chatting anymore
me: fine, you're just like straight men, you just ignore me
masculivoid: whatever if that were the case i would have stoped talking a long tiime ago
me: oh. what do we have straight people to thank for? you said that before?
masculivoid: oh yeah the fact they gave birth to us :o)
me: oh. hee hee. yeah, that's the only thing heterosexuality is good for. i can't wait til god turns gay and allows
homosexuals to be the ones to give birth
masculivoid: not me
masculivoid: i dont want to go through all that shit do u? (he just wants the meaningless lust, gaids is enough, he can't imagine protecting against childbirth too!)
me: then people will respect us and our lifestyle will be undeniably necessary
me: and straights' lifestyles will be only known as lustful
masculivoid: we dont need that for people to respect us
masculivoid: that is not the answer
me: what is the answer
masculivoid: my name is jonathan what is urs
masculivoid: people coming out and being responsible well adjusted adults
me: i went to school with a very insecure boy named jonathan. no offense, but he was just so insecure. he ended up
moving to new york to live with the only real man in his life.
me: he was a nutcase
me: he always said in an idiotic voice, "hello, what's your name?"
masculivoid: well at one time in my life i was that nutcase
me: how come?
masculivoid: i couldnt except who i was and church really fucked me up
masculivoid: lloyd r u in miami?
me: oh to hell with church. they think people aren't prisoners to their sexuality, but us gays know better.(wish he would've commented on that) i'm at the airport. i
just got in tonight.
masculivoid: want to call me tomorrow sometime.....because i have to go
me: oh...how come?
me: why can't you stay?
me: what time should i call
masculivoid: i am really tired and i have to work tomorrow
masculivoid: 9 or 10am ok
me: oh. :( okay. i'll call. maybe we can go to dinner tomorrow. and rebel against "the way it was meant to be". i can't stand
those kind of people.
sorry, i'll call tomorrow.
masculivoid: hey man dont be sorry
masculivoid: u r a really nice guy
me: what do you mean
me: thanks. so ar eyou.
masculivoid: i like people who r for real
me: yeah me too. i like to sing to my bro, "i wish the real world wouldjust stop hassling me". oops, you probably don't
wanna hear that.
masculivoid: lol not a prob man i will talk to u tomorrow and dinner sounds great
masculivoid: call me
masculivoid: u better
me: alright, i'm glad i met you! i willl!
masculivoid: dont make me have to find you:o)
masculivoid: i have a lot of cute wht friends :o)
me: : ) okay! find me lying naked on the floor! i'm getting more attracted to you by the second!
masculivoid: yeah right
masculivoid: i will send u my pic ok
me: :) fine, don't believe me.
me: ok, but i don't have one to return
masculivoid: no prob
me: oh wow, you're small, but you look regal! and dignifieed!!! i like!
masculivoid: i am small!
me: an di like a man in a business suit!
me: well the picture was small
me: i wish i had a pic to show you.
me: i'll try to get one made soon.
me: and i'll send it to you.
masculivoid: ok i will talk to u tomorrow ok
me: alright. have a good night then.
masculivoid: u too
masculivoid: no thank you:o)
me: :) we'll both thank each other soon! in person!
me: in bed!!! hee hee!
masculivoid: cool souns good to me :o)
me: my bro hates me jumping in bed as fast as i do, but it's his issue!!1 ilove it!
masculivoid: lol we will see about that u might be attratted to me
masculivoid: screw him! :o)
me: i know i already am! i don't want to screw him, he's only sexy to the girls
masculivoid: thank you i am flattered
me: i am flattered you even immed me!
masculivoid: i am glad i did:o)
masculivoid: it was the country music thing
me: what i wouldn't give to cuddle up next to you tonight! oh well, you have to go and i am sorry i don't let you go. oh,
that i'm a tour coordinator? yeah, it's a fun job
masculivoid: u know when u responed to my im i was going to be an asshole i am really glad
i didnt :o)
masculivoid: i would luv to cuddle up next to u as well
me: me too! what were you going to say? just tell me! in response to " i don't like black guys for sexual partners"?
what were you gonna saym, slap me in the face!
me: i won't be hurt! cuz i think i met someone good tonight/!
masculivoid: that i hope u find inner peace because u are a narrow minded ignorant red
neck trailer trash peice of shit! (just because i told him that blacks don't turn me on)
me: oh my goodness. just because i said i didn't want to sleep with black men? are you mad at me?
masculivoid: hell no
masculivoid: i am not mad at all
masculivoid: u have to understand all i said was i was the only blk man that luved country
music i was trying to be funny and that was ur responce
me: oh thank god. well, hell with god, thank my mcjesus!! if you know what i mean.
me: : )
masculivoid: it was a conversation starter i thought
me: yeah, sorry for my response, but black guys i've run into are mean and rough and only want sex
masculivoid: if u dont call me tomorrow i will send u hate e-mails about blk guys and wht
masculivoid: well not all of us are that way
masculivoid: my profile says well educated and built :o)
masculivoid: did i even read it
masculivoid: i mean u
yeah i read it, but all profiles say well educated and built
masculivoid: well mine is true
me: i can see now that i have that delicious picture o you!
masculivoid: i gotta run man
me: alright, i'll see you soon
masculivoid: yep i hope u like chocolate:o)
me: i like you!
masculivoid: awesome !!!!!
and i like you! :o)