so, in my diary section i told you about how i went home and saw the football coach/substitute history teacher at a gas station. the next day and the day after that, i had another rub-off session. you see, i'd been off my pills for maybe a week...so that is most likely why i got it up and active. to tell you the truth, i just couldn't get him out of my mind...but it's not like i grew hard when i was thinking of him. i guess i made a conscious decision to rub-er-bate, thinking of how i hadn't done so since march and of stuff like that. so i did it. two days in a row. then i got back on paxil.