just because i can relate to the void queers feel, doesn't mean i also feel self-pity. yeah, delusions of masculine grandeur overtake my life, the reason i haven't been doing anything social but meeting guys at rest stops is because sex is the only way i feel i can bond with anybody. yeah, i've debated about joining the gay chess club and the gay swim team, but doing so wouldn't help me grow...it'd just keep me locked inside my own cell where all i am is gay. and where the only music i hear is "i wish the real world would just stop hassling me".
i'll reiterate: there is no straight chess club, no straight swim team, maybe that should tell you exactly what gays think of themselves and where their minds are.