i wrote this letter to my mom after she gave me an article about some brain-injured guy who made something of his life after trauma:

i write letter after letter explaining the same thing over and over in different words, yet every time i see you it's always a "you need to get back to normal" that i hear from you.

you are kind of living in the past.  you always bring up high school and how many friends i had.  there is just so much wrong with that, i don't know where to begin.  high school was 15 years ago.  if you want a little reassurance that i am the same person that i was, come look at my room.  if you want me to work so bad, find me a job where i could work for an hour or two.  they do not exist, that is why i have no job.  i went to the downtown spca for an hour every day when i was required to.  i do not know if i'd even work for an hour every day if i was not required to.

in the words of dr. blash, and i'm not exactly proud of this, "dylan doesn't do what dylan doesn't wanna do".

my website is what i do.  and it is what i wanna do.  i like being satirical (adjective) exposing human folly to ridicule.  that's what i do.  someday www.jaggedlittledyl.com, llc will make and sell its own novelties, rather than having a couple virtual storefronts few know about.

you need to stop trying to make me into the teenager i was.  have you ever told laurel that she dated the opposite sex in high school?  did she say "eureka" - is that what you were hoping i'd exclaim after reading the article you gave to me?  i am not looking for an identity, i have one.  i have a couple, actually.  i am borderline schizo.  at least the doc is baltimore said so.

i am not miserable, i am not lonely, i am not without purpose, i do not have a low self-image (actually, i am kind of eccentric).  i am not unhappy.  i do not need to leave my house much because in the words of jakob dylan, "i got, i got everything i need".  i write letter after letter explaining the same thing over and over in different words, yet every time i see you it's always a "you need to get back to normal" that i hear from you.

did i say that twice?

dylan

check out my site, www.jaggedlittledyl.com , unless you're there now