some masculivoid on manhunt.net just sent me an email, "i
want to play with you when i get into town".
you want to "play" with me? i guess you're saying
your mind would be as occupied by my naked body, as a little
boy's would be by a tonka truck.
does my picture lead you to believe i would hold your
sexual interest? why can't females hold it, do men
fill a sexual void in you that females simply cannot?
were you born this way? were you born with an understanding
of femininity that keeps you from wanting to explore and
discover it, were you born with a misunderstanding of
masculinity? did these cognitive or emotional voids
just one day present themselves with no rhyme or reason, or
has their place in your mind been earned?
in second grade and before, other boys were just boys.
in third grade, maybe forth grade, i started to realize that
athletic boys were better than non-athletic boys.
maybe it was their popularity, maybe it was them not being
picked last for teams and being safe from the embarrassment
i felt. maybe it was both, but it was either in 3rd or
4th grade that i got real itchy and had to keep rubbing
myself on the bed until i came. i have never known
sexual attraction as anything but a longing to get closer to
the untouchables. you can't touch this.
"if you wanna believe there's nothing detrimental to a
masculine soul about finding security, fulfillment and
something excitable taboo in another one, it's your loss"
(i made that quote up - must've been before 1997, since i
remember showing it to stevanne in the annapolis head-injury
check out my site, www.jaggedlittledyl.com
, unless you're there now